Sunday, 17 April 2016

It's all about the power

My experience with a narcissist has been quite devastating. He has moved on and probably doesn't give me a second thought, unless he wants to gloat that he has found someone who is so much better than me. I on the other hand feel as if my life has been taken away. I feel angry and hurt that I didn't get the respect that his new supply has. Even if he thought he liked me in the beginning, the moment he realised he didn't then he could have walked away, but he didn't, he kept me in his life secretly.

Deleting me off social media was one of his favourite ways of controlling me. If I made a comment that could show we had more going on than what the outside world knew, he would either delete the comment or delete me, but send me private messages apologizing and how his life is so messed up etc. etc. all woe is me, please feel sorry for me, which I did. So I accepted his treatment of me and the more low I became the more I accepted the situation. At one stage in the relationship I didn't come out of my bedroom for months, he was the only person I communicated with, my abuser, he made me feel that I couldn't live without him. 

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